Our latest agency update is more of the same. Just more waiting. Part of what is making the wait so hard is just not knowing where things are at or if they are moving forward. There are lots of people involved. Different time zones. Different governments. And different expectations. Basically, we don’t know much. But we do know that, as is the case with adoption, sometimes things go super smoothly, and sometimes they don’t. So our mama and papa bear are on guard all. the. time. Some days I feel like we’re putting on armor, and we’re not even sure if we’ll need it. This all may seem really pessimistic to some, but we feel like it’s better to be prepared, and know that adoption isn’t always rainbows and unicorns, than to sit here expecting perfection and not get it. Bottom line is if everything goes swimmingly, then great. But if it doesn’t, and Nate and I need to get involved, we will. In fact, we have no problem doing that at all.
But for today, we wait. And God preps us a little more for tomorrow. He’s giving us new connections, a fiercer desire to follow His lead, and the strength to put into actions some things we never thought we’d do. That’s been an underlying theme throughout this whole process though. We tell God “This is what we want. How we want it. And when.” Followed by periodic statements beginning in “And by the way, we’d never…”
“…adopt a special needs child.”
“…adopt older than an infant.”
“…stay in Africa longer than necessary”
But God’s in the business of changing hearts. And He does. So now we laugh a little if one of us says “I don’t think we’ll ever…” because at this point we consider that a prayer of invitation to soften parts of our heart that obviously need it. Kind of like when I prayed “break my heart for what breaks yours” over and over and over for the last 18 months. He’ll do that too. So be ready for it.
In the mess of all the unknown three things that have remained constant: 1. God will complete this work that He has started, and is giving us the strength and support to do what He has asked of us. 2. Elsa is worth it. Whatever is ahead, whether it smooth or dreadful, she is more than worth it. Every child is. And 3. Nate and I are on the same page, and willing to do whatever is asked of us. Knowing those three things means that we can move forward each day. And that’s what will get her home.